Come Out of Hiding

Airplane flights have a supernatural effect on me. When high in the sky, away from the horrific sounds of police cars, ambulances, and firetrucks, I feel in tune with God. As if we are having a one-on-one in-depth conversation. However, when I exit the plane, that once vivid feeling of connectivity is gone, and I feel further away from my Father. My spirit urges me to connect back with the Spirit of the Holy One that was there moments ago; however, my body and soul are interested in examining what is around me physically. After a few tugs and words of deception, the flesh wins this round. My spirit cries to be set free by the Father while my body moves by the beat of the fast cars, flashing lights, and chaotic commotion of the world.

The last time you heard from me regarding REFRESH Magazine was April 20. (Check it out here!) on that specific date, I informed you that I’d be going on a journey, and I’ll be keeping you posted on what God had in store for me.

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While filming that segment, I repeated what my Father informed me to say to His people. At the time, I had no idea what the “journey” would look like, who would be involved, or what I would receive from it. In a sense, I felt as if I were one of Jesus’s first disciples: anxious, curious, and ready. For they had no idea where Jesus was taking them, but they “IMMEDIATELY left their nets and followed Him” (Matthew 4:20) because they sensed in their spirit that something grand was about to take place. Feeling the same way, I dropped everything clear and certain to me and followed the voice I perceived as God, and then…..everything changed.

For the next five months, I found myself seeking my home, peers, thought process, church, and, sure enough, my voice. In many ways, my voice became obsolete, quiet and silent. Yes, it would speak, but simply according to man and what sounded good. The best way I could describe myself during that time was similar to a robot- an object moving by demand. I would have moments where the light to my spirit would flicker mightily in my womb, and for a few minutes, I’d sense in my spirit that I wasn’t exactly where God wanted me to be. However, once I’d mention that feeling or sense to anyone, I’d be informed that it simply wasn’t my spirit speaking to me but a distraction from the enemy. After receiving such a straightforward message, I would forget about my spirit and, just as I would when exiting a plane, follow my body and soul.

Now mind you, in the beginning, when I first received Word about this journey, I just knew it was from God. Nevertheless, it took the start of this journey to figure out what I was experiencing was not ordained by God. However, He informed me that “ALL THINGS work together for GOOD to those who love Him and are called according to HIS PURPOSE (Romans 8:28), and even during that trial He still had me covered and even until this day He still does. I needed to experience the trial that I went through this summer. By experiencing it, I became more aware of myself, my calling and truly my voice.

So my message for you today is to enjoy your life. Enjoy the struggles, changes, challenges, hardships, and joys, for it is simply set to help you. Keep in mind that our God is a God of love. He cares very much about you, but He wants to see you grow. So every hardship or mix-up you find yourself in, and you feel as if God is not there, count it as a lie and begin to declare authority over your life, for you have it because He’s given you dominion and power! With that being said, let the journey to REFRESH continue. Join me on this real-life roller coaster where I will share with you the practical steps God shares with me, His overall full purpose for me and will.