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The Secret I’ve Held for 9 Years… Until Now

Happy Friday! How are you? I hope well because I have a secret I’ve held for nine years and I would love to share it with you. If you’re wondering why now, I believe it’s time. I believe Abba wants me to share this chapter of my life with you, so in due time His glory will be revealed and His healing powers manifested! So, with that being said let’s jump right into tonight’s post! Have you ever experienced being in a state of mind where you have no control over your body? Your conscience may tell you to snap out of it, but your body does the total opposite? During my eighth grade year, I recall a former classmate experiencing those incidents way too often. He would lay flat on his back, shake and jerk uncontrollably. His eyes would roll to the back of his head and saliva would foam from his mouth. To see this student, who had control over his body just minutes before, operate with no control always took me by surprise. I remember one day asking him what they were known as and calmly he responded, “Seizures.” As the school year progressed, his seizures did too.  And as an immature teenager, my care to check in on him after each episode decreased. Until one day they stopped. In 2007 he passed away. He was only 13 years old. Although I’m at peace and confident he’s resting with Abba Father, this time of the year always hits home because it marks National Epilepsy Awareness Month. My Secret Revealed Epilepsy, also known as a seizure disorder, affects the nervous system. On January 2, 2011, I was diagnosed with it after experiencing two back-to-back seizures. What a way to start off that new year huh? When I received the news I was devastated, mortified, afraid, and most importantly mad at God. Only five years had passed since I watched the life of my middle school friend slip away and suddenly I had it. How could this happen to me? Was this God’s form of payback for how I treated my now deceased friend in the past? I had many concerns and no answers. Living with Epilepsy as a Christian I wish I could say this disorder magically disappeared after changing a few of my eating habits, visiting my neurologist quarterly, having yearly brain scans, and taking high dosages of my prescribed medicine daily. I wish I could say I haven’t experienced any seizures at all this year. I wish I could say I am ALWAYS positive after a seizure occurs. However, I cannot. I have insecurities from time to time and wonder, “Why Me?” Nevertheless, Abba reminds me to be of good cheer for He is with me and His glory will be revealed. That is why when I am in pain I  praise! I praise Abba for all He’s done, for allowing me to see another day,  and I praise Him in advance for healing me. He healed Jeremiah from sickness, the woman who suffered from issues of blood and rose Lazarus from the dead. So, I KNOW He can do the same for me. He can even do the same for YOU too! Share Your Story, Make A Change If are experiencing an illness or you know someone who is I challenge you to try God by sharing your/their story. Tell others what you/they are experiencing, and declare what you KNOW God will do! I pray blessings to you! You’ve made it to the end of this post. I encourage you to share your story. If you would like to learn more about the Epilepsy Foundation or donate click here! I would also love to hear your thoughts on the secret revealed. What was your greatest take away? Share in the comments below! I look forward to hearing from you!

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7 Things to Remember While Walking with God

Are you tired of waiting? Do you feel like you are walking alone? Does it seem like all of your friends are moving forward in life? However, you are stuck on the sidelines cheering them on? While you carry a smile on the outside, your heart may carry jealousy on the inside. You wish it were you moving forward instead of your friend.  At this point, you’re probably crying out to God asking, “Why Me?! When will my blessing come? I’ve been serving you awhile now. What gives?” My friends, it’s okay. Your flesh can get the best of you but remember it has NO control over you unless you allow it to.  As you continue to carry out the plan God has assigned for you, I encourage you to read the book of Matthew.  The book of Matthew is not only the first Gospel in the New Testament of the Bible, but it provides you with the first look of Jesus’s reactions to various trials and tribulations He faced while on Earth. To give you a headstart,  check out the seven scriptures below that will help you remain firm while you walk your journey with God. 7 Things to Remember While Walking with God Do Good to please God, not man.- Matthew 6:1-3If you are given the assignment to do something (i.e. give to the homeless, inform others of Christ, sow a seed to your church) don’t do it to be noticed or recognized by others, but do it for God has told you to do so. The Model Prayer: Say what you mean and don’t do it for recognition.- Matthew 5:15God wants things done decently and in order. While in prayer you should not inform all that you have prayed for, for God already knows and will give you what you desire. This is why “Our Father’s Prayer” is important. It is not only a prayer but a mission statement that we should live by on a day-to-day basis. Fasting: Do so in the WILL of GOD.- Matthew 6:16Fasting breaks chains. It connects you closer to Christ and it makes your request known to God so He can grant your prayer at an appointed time.  When you fast you should not showcase that they are in pain, but present yourself as normal for God will bless you openly. Focus on heavenly gifts, not earthly ones.- Matthew 6:19-21Your focus should not be on gaining things of this world (i.e. money, glory, fame), but gaining gifts of God. Those things will last even while in heaven, but the fine things on Earth will pass away.  Place your eyes on good and holy, not pleasure and deceit.- Matthew 6:22-23For one’s eyes is the light of the body. If one focuses their eyes on good things/positive images, they will be light to others and those people will see it. However, if one focuses their eyes on the pleasure  they will showcase darkness and be looked upon as deceitful. Would You Rather: Go to heaven or receive all the money in the world?- Matthew 6:24At the end of the day, there are only two places people will be able to reside once this life is over— heaven or hell. Depending on where one’s soul lives, money won’t be in the picture. You can’t serve God and the devil. Choose which one you will serve and deal with the consequences. The BIG Key: DO NOT WORRY- Matthew 6:25-34God helped Moses deliver people from Egypt. He helped Noah, his family, and numerous animals. He even made sure Joseph’s vision came to pass by rescuing his family from famine. So, why do you think He won’t do the same for you? You limit your faith when you worry and question God. Set your mind at a positive state and BELIEVE that God will dol WHATEVER you claim Him to do and HE WILL!

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